I am just noticing that for me when I get my manic swings that I have a tendancy of being a lot more angry and irritable wither it be for reasonable reasons or for nothing that is reasonable at all.

its kind of really a dumb stupid cycle to be frankly honest, cause when I do note that I am angry over something...it just in turn makes me more angry cause frankly I don't want to be angry or irritable at all.

But feeding fire with fire rarely helps.
And since I have rapid cycle bipolar usually I will have fun points of high energy and irritablity when I am manic and then have a huge low swing of depression of omg why did I do that I really hate myself right now for acting that way.

I am amazed to be hones I have not ended up cutting myself or hurting myself at all...from all this cause frankly...after the incidents I really feel like I want to be hurting myself. I think being around family and friends that are willing to physically restrain me helps me not...end up fully hurting myself...

Even though I would really like to when I get to points like this.
Just sayin...