I think I know how you feel, Empty. I try really hard to stay positive, but there are times when it seems so pointless. I have been trying to find meaning and purpose in my life, but to no avail. Right now I am working a job that makes me feel like a glorified maid.(I am not putting down maids.) I cannot seem to get where I want to be. So like what is the point in being here. sigh.
But, I guess I will continue to try. Perhaps in some small way I can be blessing to someone else this year. I will try. I am So tired of being depressed. A hug for me, and sending one to you.