ouch ouch ouch.. God......jennifere..... wow...

i hope you are not doing it anymore.... do you?
well i must say than when i am mad at myself i have vissions in my head of cutting.... but when i do have them i try to control the image like hat:

let`s say: i cut myself...-i have teh scar-then it suddenly heals! outomatically heals! by itself it heals and the knife or whatever is thrown FAR AWAY and i take a deap breath
and feel better, stronger... i feel i am the captain-the LEADER of the situation-instead of leting the situation lead and depress me.

maybe this can help. try it.

by the way in my songs sometimes i have strong images of SI although i stopped doing that about 4 years ago