I have T today, in an hour an a half, and I don't even know if I can get out of bed let alone talk about how I feel. I haven't been able to do anything more strenuous than walk into the house from my fiancé since the morning of the first. I wouldn't be eating if it wasn't for him getting me food. Im sorta suicidal and fed up but I feel like I don't have the energy for any of it. I don't know what to do. I just want to give up and drop out of school and melt my life away.

Sorry I'm just complaining. I needed somewhere to vent.