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Binge/Purge or just purge? So T put this question before me:
So, it's important for me to distinguish when you choose self harm vs. eat/purging...is it a matter of where you are(your context)?...like work vs. home or is the choice of which method based on a certain feeling inside?
I tried hard to think and really understand and I came up with this:
[COLOR="rgb(139, 0, 0)"]Bing/purge or just purge can just come on instantly. This usually happens when at the end of the day when everything is done (I am alone) and I sit to relax. I do not remember having that overwhelming child like feeling for comfort. It is more of a need for release. It does not just happen during the evening it has been an ALL day event happening several times in one day (usually on the weekends when I am along overwhelmed with thoughts/emotions). This is difficult to control and usually succumb to it.
Self Harm happens:
When very suicidal
Need to self punish when feeling broken/worthless/useless just bad
Yes I think I feel like something has escaped from the basement when this comes one. It is a desperate, overwhelming need.
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When a child’s emotional needs are not met and a child is repeatedly hurt and abused, this deeply and profoundly affects the child’s development. Wanting those unmet childhood needs in adulthood. Looking for safety, protection, being cherished and loved can often be normal unmet needs in childhood, and the survivor searches for these in other adults. This can be where survivors search for mother and father figures. Transference issues in counseling can occur and this is normal for childhood abuse survivors.
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