i would never marry for money. Love obviously always comes first. And you're right, I'm probably not truly in love, which is why i broke up with him. However, I would prefer a lifestyle that i'm already accustomed to. I can fall in love with a well-off man too (well-off, not necessarily rich). So, why should I settle for this guy if I do not truly love him yet? If I do end up with this guy, I would not want to miss out on time with my kids, since I would be working hard to support all of us. Why should I make it difficult and put myself in this position? I'd rather break it off before I truly fall in love with him.

I'm not saying that 60k is low income. I'm well aware that it's above the U.S. average. But, I would rather live in the NYC area (near my family and friends), which is super expensive. 60k would not be enough, for lets say, a family of four. I'm the type of person who needs security. It could be just as easy to fall in love with a well-off man, than one from the middle class. Why should I lock myself down with him in an early stage of my life?

Also, this is not the only reason. Since he does not make much money, I would hate for him to waste some of it on me, if I do not truly love him yet. He says he doesn't care and he wants to spend money on the girl he loves, but I just feel guilty. I can't really explain it. Maybe its apart of my depression. I'm not sure. I feel that I'm not worth being spent on, and I'm not worth traveling 3 hours. He says i'm delusional and ridiculous for thinking this way (we have talked about this self-worth thing for 2 months already), but i can't help my thoughts. I'd rather be with a guy who I'm more convenient for, and who doesn't have to bend over backwards to treat me. I would feel less guilty this way. Maybe I feel that I don't deserve to be loved by someone? I'm not sure.

For example, I'd rather a well-off guy take me for an expensive meal than a guy from less money. This way the well-off man is not sacrificing much on me.

he told me today that i do not even give it a chance to become love because he's not rich. for the past 2 months, he has told me that we can work through my depression together.

I believe that he is a good guy and he wants to stay by my side no matter what. It makes me feel super guilty that I do not love him as much as he loves me. he tells me how much he loves me and everything and I believe him.

We have so much chemistry, it's crazy. The day i spent with him in NYC, was one of the best days of my life. But he spent a lot of money on me, and I felt ****** when the day was over, for some reason. He didn't even complain about it, but i still felt guilty.

I have been on many dates with other guys before, but I have not had the same chemistry with them.

A week ago, i went to the bars with my friends and I was not interested in any guy because I was too preoccupied with him. That is when I told him I love him back, because I did not take interest in any guy (even though these guys seemed they may be interested in me). before i met him, i have always flirted with guys.

then a few days after i told him i was not sure if I love him or not because I have never been in love before. He said that it's okay and not to feel bad, and that it may blossom over time.

we confide in each other all the time. We have the most amazing inside jokes etc. I give away certain aspects of my personality, that I have never told anyone before. I'm extremely honest with him, and he loves that.

he still wants to be with me. I asked him if we can be good friends instead, but he has not responded back yet.