I remember my first sexual feeling was when I was 4 years old. I remember it very clearly. Of course, at that age I had no idea what it was. I just knew that it was an overpowering feeling. However, interestingly enough, what I was feeling was not masculine at all. Not even a little bit. I was laying in my bed. It was early morning and maybe an hour before the time I was supposed to get up. I got this incredibly overpowering need to have someone do something to me in a way that I couldn't understand. I really needed someone to put SOMETHING into me somehow, somewhere. I didn't know what that was all about other than I wanted something and I wanted it urgently. All I know is that I had this intense desire that I didn't understand at all. It wasn't until I got much older that I recognized those feeling as being quite feminine.

That was the only time I ever felt that way. But, I still remember it like it happened yesterday. I think perhaps it gave me a much greater insight into the female sexual psyche that I carry with me to this day. I dunno... My wife and I have talked about this event several times. She seems to understand what I'm talking about...

My first MALE encounter with sexuality was when I was probably 6. We used to go swimming at a huge outdoor swimming pool that the Navy had on base. At that age my mother would bring all four of her children into the womens dressing/shower room to shower and change clothes. The place where we changed clothes had a long bench with a tall back on it that was made of wooden slats. There was a gap of about 1 inch between the slats. I remember standing on the bench and looking through the slats and seeing two women that were probably in their early 20's. They'd just come from taking their showers so of course they were both as naked as can be. I remember watching them through the slats, completely fascinated with their bodies. I couldn't help but watch them both and was filled with a need to touch them or to do SOMETHING. I didn't know what... all I know is that I REALLY, REALLY liked what I was seeing and wanted to see a lot more of it!

I think that that was the last time my mother brought me in to the womens shower room with her. After that I always had to use the mens shower room. Yeah, I think mom was a pretty smart cookie... and oh-so-observant.

Dan