Internal conflict... It's really tough.
I struggle big time with this, too. It gets frustrating because sessions could be all over the place sometimes and I leave feeling drained, confused, and in a bad place.
Usually when it's happening really bad with me, my therapist notices and takes over the session. She starts talking and there have been times she has talked the entire session because I just couldn't get my thoughts straight. It really helped most times. There were even times she would hit it spot on and I'd be able to take over and process my thoughts properly.
I get it though! It's a constant inner struggle!
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Originally Posted by Asiablue
Does anyone else feel completely different emotions about a single subject? I'm not sure i even make sense in therapy half the time. I feel like i'm being inauthentic or lying about a response but actually i'm completely fragmented into 1000 pieces and each piece feels a different thing.
Why does that happen? I did tell my T but i can't remember if she said anything about it.
An example can be something like, feeling angry about something but also feeling apathetic or numb about it and sad but also thinking it's right.
I just feel like i'm not a consistent personality, how i feel about something or react to something can be totally different depending on my mood, it's like all those pieces don't make a whole person but make many versions of me.
I don't even know if i'm explaining myself properly.
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-Hope