Ah sexual feelings, so wondrous when they don't interfere with life in strange awkward ways, as they did with mine.

I can remember feeling sexual feelings as early as 7, in response to teen idols, crushes, rock stars on TV. I don't know how I finally found my way to masturbating but I did so with frequency, often got caught and was very very abusively shamed for doing so.

It did not make things better.

I lost my virginity at 13 to my best friend's older 18 year old brother.