I have transference over my old therpaist that moved. He is the only one I want to talk to. I'm closing down on everyone(I'm not meaning to) and I'm keeping my feelings to myself. I don't want it to be this way but I just feel like no matter what way I turn I will NEVER have a connection like the one I had with my old therpaist. I'm so scared of getting attached/close to someone so I push everyone away(I don't want to though)because I opened up to my old therapist and when he moved I had/still am having a hard time which also caused transference feelings. I'm scared of getting hurt again but at the same time I want to have friends. I lost a lot of my friends because they moved away. I always feel lonely because I am. I don't do anything. I feel like my life is going to waste but I'm so scared to do anything in life and I really need my old therpaist back but I know I can't have that and that hurts me so much. I don't feel like I'm important to anyone.(besides family) I need help but no matter what I do I'm afraid of getting attached to someone and getting hurt. I want to continue therapy but I'm not able to open up about my real feelings because I'm scared. It won't be any different with another therapist. I will always be afraid of getting close and having transference feelings with someone else. I feel so stuck and have no where to turn.