Thanks TealBumblebee....it helps to know that I am not alone...there are numbers involved in terms of number of strokes/position etc that always just happen...like I said, I think I figured it out, but cannot discuss. I like that you set your "borders" or boundaries for how far you will go. I hope it gets smaller instead of bigger and you find more ways to heal/substifute/distract/heal in the future...
Respectfully,
WB