Hello Newfie Girl, I am sorry that you are feeling like this. You have obviously tried all the usual suspects, Anti depressants, therapy.. Hang in there, as things do change. I am not going to tell you its going to be fine but that is the goal we are all trying to achieve. I am only guessing that you are on anti depressants but it does take a long time to get the right one for you. Don't give up. Best wishes.