> I have read plenty of books & articles whereby actual psychiatrists generally admit to deliberately not taking on certain pts with particular disorders.

I don't know any psychiatrists who refer patients onto someone else in virtue of a diagnosis of depression. Sure, not all p-docs are comfortable working with autism or with sleep disorders or whatever, but that is typically because they want to do the best they can by the patient and that means referring them on to someone who specialises in that area.

> They find them too difficult to treat & don't want to have to deal w/ them. This is why I feel the way I do. So frustrating.

Ah. You are concerned about rejection not just by the p-doc but you are concerned that the rejection will signify something much much greater than merely that one p-doc rejecting you. You are concerned that you really are 'difficult' in the sense that... There is little hope?

I've been there too. Oh yeah, I really really have.

Hang in there. Let us know how it goes.