Yes in retrospect I realized that my emotions are more pronounced when I get manic. I used to only see the euphoric part of my mania, how small little things in life elicits strong happiness and excitement in me. When I read your posts and some others' comments, I realized that mania also caused my anger to become more pronounced - I especially can't stand perceived imperfections in co-workers - I become less tolerant of others' inefficiency. In retrospect, I wonder if they were really inefficient, or is it my unrealistic perception that made them appear so? Perhaps the mania made me over-efficient, and they were simply performing at normal and acceptable levels?
Perhaps mania just has the ability to inflate all our emotions, be it happiness, anger, etc, out of proportion to the actual circumstances? And because mania generally impairs our judgement and decision process, we tend to allow ourselves to exhibit stronger emotions that we would otherwise not indulge ourselves in under normal (non-mania) circumstances.
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