I could go on forever, but I won't lol. Recently my mother who believes that she can tell me what I need to do for my own life. She never asks me what I would like to do for myself, she tells me what I need to do (that will make her happy I guess) and then what the consequences will be if I don't. Also, her thinking she has any semblance of an idea of what I do everyday and how hard it is for me to get it all done just because we're both single mothers.

Most recently, she jokingly said she was moving to Hawaii and I told her that she couldn't leave without me. She told me that I had to get a job before I moved with her. I told her that I was still looking to work from home, she just said that hasn't worked out for you so far (that was so nice )That kinda threw me off since she said that at a time when things were light and supposed to be funny, and she knows how hard It's been for me to find work since I lost my most steady work since 2012. Anyway, I told her that I was recently hired somewhere and she just said that she hopes it works out, but unfortunately I just found out that they actually won't be taking me after all. Well anyway it's back to the same old, also it's really hard when I feel likie everything is how it's supposed to be because this is what I deserve. I don't really have any friends, nobody asks to make sure I'm doing ok, how I'm feeling, I just feel like everybody resents me except for my kids and the one friend that I have now. I don't really feel like a real person and it's so hard for me to feel connected to anyone.

Also, most recently I remembered another job prospect yesterday. I sent them a message on Skype asking if they were still hiring. I think they removed for their contact list, they could have answered the question at least but what can you do? Everyone has their own issues right? lol

Sorry, I didn't mean for that to be so long but I could really go on lol.