I don't like going. I like my T, and I hope that going will be helpful for me, but I can't say that I've ever once looked forward to it - it is certainly NOT the highlight of my week.

I can say that going is progressively getting easier as I get to know him more. Unless something bigger has gone on, in which case I dread going.

But then - I have really large issues with appointments in general. So I find just GOING to the appointment as progress in my life. And the fact that I keep making myself go back, even though I really don't want to and there's nothing making me - I sorta find that to be part of my own therapy, haha. I've told my T that too a few times when he's seemed confused or frustrated over what to suggest to help me. I've been like "Just COMING to this appointment is a challenge for me T. Every week I don't want to come and yet I still come and then I force myself to tell you things that I don't trust you with."