Been close to a year since I have cut. Was hitting myself, bruising really bad, but have that under control lately.
That said, I went into by little box of tools under the kitchen sink, and there was an unopened pack of box cutter blades. My first tool before I started buying the little ones that people use in razors. Swear they were just screaming at me to use them.
Thing is family crud is so out of hand. Been struggling since September, bouncing from one trigger to family crisis, over and over. Am emotionally and physically exhausted/drained from it.
I so want to open that package. But I know that if I do, I won't be able to stop with just one wound.... er for staples/stitches, and possible hospitalization.
I am fighting this, successfully so far. My thought this morning, is if I can get through the next few days, not letting all of them getting me so upset and giving them that power over me... that will be a true victory