((((((((FULLNAVIA))))))))

Yes, it's normal. I wish I could carry some of that weight for you, I know grief can be such a heavy load to bear.
I know grief & heartbreak feel like they hurt so much it should kill you. But it doesn't. We have to keep going, such a hard thing.
A year is not a long time compared to the lifetime of memories with this treasured friend. Please allow that you need a longer time to grieve and while it will never really go away, this pain, it will get a little easier to bear in time.
I am so sorry for your loss. Please keep posting, we are a nice & compassionate bunch here. We really do care.