I have an attachment issue... I'm hopelessly besotted by a person and everything I do or feel depends on this person. I know it's not healthy but I don't know what to do about it. I understand that it is a mother figure I see in her (I'm a girl too)because my mum was very bad to me and I don't speak to her. She has cared for me so much and done so much for me at a really low point in my life but I just really need to get this off my chest it tears my apart some days, it's heartbreaking. This has happened before though as soon as someone shows me any attention. How can I stop feeling SO much cos I realize I need to be my own person but I never have been and I'm certainly not now because of her. I don't think she knows how I feel but I tell her lovely things and do lots of things for her and tell her that I think she's beautiful. Is there even a chance that she KNOWS?? She knows all about my problems and stuff so maybe she's already figured out how I feel? But I have never ever made a move on her I cant, she's straight, and older than me, I'm 25 she's 41. Yes I know I realize this is just some kind of fairytale fantasy thing and now I've begun rambling so I'm sorry about that. I'm just happy for anyone to reply anything with any comments or thoughts on this. Most of all I just felt I needed to say it 'out loud' kinda...though it's scary. Cos I'd much rather have her as a friend forever than anything else.
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Don't let your happiness depend on something you might one day lose... 
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Effexor XR 225 mg
Risperidone 4 mg
Reoccurring depression w/ psychotic symptoms
Borderline Personality Disorder
Dependant Personality Disorder
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