....God damned live wire.

I just got off the phone with my brother. He had a fabulous vacation and all I could do was say "cool" and "great".

My brother is so damn calm. It's like he's always on downers of something. He's smart. He's funny. Everyone likes him.

I'm a damned exposed nerve. I'm at the same time in a funk and ready to fight at a moments notice. I have few friends, and those are all women..... Who I'm not sleeping with. I am constantly misunderstood and am always pissing people off.

Ugh. I love my brother, I just wish I was more like him. Please don't think that I in anyway disparaging my brother. I just wish I was more like him.

:-/