I have been stewing over this since Thursday. I shouldn't be because I know T had just had a procedure done but I do feel a bit robbed and/or used. I dont know. I supposed I'm upset because it would've been my 2nd session since the long holiday break and I really needed it. My T was at work and emailed me to cancel because she felt bad.

I'm kinda hurt because I know she was having sessions with other clients until 1 that day, My session was at 3.

This comes after the fact that we actualy discussed me needing something stable that I could count on in my life, and acknowledging the fact that T is that one stable thing. And then all of a sudden she's ill, hours before my session. I'm not thinking that she's lying or anything, I'm just trying to process what I'm feeling.

Last night, well, actually this morning, I emailed her a bunch of stuff that was going on in my mind at that point. It was really scattered (just like this post, im sorry you guys ) and I'm starting to feel like maybe I shouldn't have sent it to her because I think I was too honest in it and it may come off as being 'needy' since I've made alot of progress emotionally in T, so I don't want her to think that I've regressed.

I hope I'm making sense here, I'm still awfully scatter-brained, so I guess this is 2 different posts combined.