I can relate exactly to your post. My T had to cancel just before the Xmas/new year break for 'family duties' and I felt like I wasn't important in comparison to her family. It really bothered me. And then I felt guilty as I don't know what the family reasons are - maybe a birth of a grandchild or a death? I have written to tell her how needy I felt (feel) but I haven't give her the letter yet as I don't see her until next week formate first session after the break. I am in two minds about whether I should share this information with her as there is a whole load of transference stuff going on too but I know how you feel - so we'll.it's really difficult. I'm sorry you are in that weird place. I know how hard it is.