Somebody please explain to me how is it possible to start working with a brand new t3. Here are the facts:

T1 : worked together for 1 year 3 mos
connection: good
trust: good
work: everything , csa towards the end
Left while working on trauma work with me, for another job, gave me 2 weeks notice.
Feelings: anger broken trust sad confused.

T2 worked together 1 yr 4 months she is leaving 5 weeks
connection deep
work csa and relatioships and current issues
feelings very hurt tears abandonment confusion anger ect..shutdown

I dont blame either therapist.
I just dont have any more energy or resources in me to want to continue, this has been a major trigger into my past. Please give me your oppinions.