I do this too but I can say I am nearly at my limits. It is getting harder to lift so much weight. I know that if I tell them they might not believe me and even say I am saying that for attention.
"...And I don't think I will be able to live after that. No I am not going to end myself even though I think I might. I can move to some other corner of the country and live there. I am a freaking genius crippled by a disease, I can stand better than them..."
Well these are the thoughts in my mind. But I don't think I can ever tell... I don't think I can stand too when I am crawling like this...

Too much depression for today let's watch some talk-shows.