Anxiety and panic were huge last night. Trigger I shouldnt fuel with words here. Today was better. Hard getting out of bed. But I knew I had to go grocery shopping so there was not a choice. Turns out that with the cold temperatures and strong winds it felt colder today than yesterday when it was 6 below zero. I did not go to the second grocery store. I can do that tomorrow before the next storm. Living like this adds to the depression. So few days I can go outside. Have to keep the heat down to between 53 and 57F. Because cost of heating it is so high. I wear 2 pairs of thermal socks, a fleece jacket over 2 sweaters and a cotton T neck... inside. While under many layers of blankets. Summertime is less depressing