I meant that if you felt guilty or wrong by 'complaining', that you could think of it in terms of cause and effect. For example, children who are neglected can sometimes grow up needy and insecure; this could be thought of as a cause and effect relationship (or correlation) instead of thinking or saying - my parents were horrible. Identifying and understanding causes of why you feel the way you do....But after reading your reply, it doesn't seem that this has much to do with your situation.

When I'm afraid my T will not like it if I do this or that, it usually has roots in fear of rejection or fear of abandonment. Does that sound possible in your case? It's just so many things come down to that, so I would not be the least bit surprised....