I totally panic and started to say very rude and mean things to a guy whose been wanting to get to know me more then just friends.

I haven't had the company of another man in 2 years and I don’t know how to relax when someone has shown interest in me and wanting to get to know me. I'm the type that feels more comfortable if I were to make the first move in a relationship. Now there's this guy who suddenly appeared and he's the one who made all the first moves and continue to keep in contact with me but instead I've insulted him and he's not returning my phone call. I enjoy his company so much and he's a great guy. I was so stubborn to accept that we were causally dating and said we're hanging out because of school and club activities. We met on college campus and are members in the same club.

I asked him if he had liked me or not and he said he’s just not sure yet but he's been thinking about me. He then gave me the sweetest smile. He stood right next to me in my home as I was washing my dishes. He was about to join me and help with the dishes, I panic and pushed him away. I began saying that if he's this friendly with all his female friends then I'm not the next one to take their place because I don't have time to waste with someone who's not serious. He was shocked that I said something so bluntly. I then told him that he's only returned home for 3 months and probably, like all other guys and would jump on any girl that gives him attention. That was when he turned away and stayed quite for a couple of minutes. I tried talking to him afterwards when I realized how wrong I was but he said I had insulted his character and he's leaving and said good-bye. I called him 30 minutes after he left and every since last night I haven't heard from him.

I want to hear his response after getting my voicemail and if that means he doesn't want to talk to me ever again then at least I know. I can't believe I panic and pushed him away like that and worst of all insulted him at the same time. He hasn’t even given me any sign that he would have treated me in such a manner and I accused him anyway.

I really don't know how to handle the company of another man when I haven't dated for 2 years and it doesn't help that the last person I loved had let me down so painfully.