Hello, My name is Sarah, I’m 25 years old and recently my doctor confirmed my suspicious mind that I do indeed have borderline personality disorder. I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder 4 years ago and have been seeing a psychiatrist ever since. It wasn’t until about 6 months ago I thought I might also have BPD. I literally show signs of EVERY single symptom. Perhaps the most profound symptoms are my instances of “intense episodic dysphoria” which involve me getting HIGLY upset, crying for hours, feeling helpless and alone and it’s just the worst possibly feeling ever. It happens randomly every 4 months or so and comes on “suddenly” out of nowhere and I used to not know what caused it. I recently started to notice that these “episodes” usually happen immediately after a conflict with a friend or some sort of interpersonal situation gone wrong. Sometimes I feel like my friends don’t really like me, are using me, and could care less about me. I get very paranoid and anxious around social situations and like I said sometimes it gets so bad that it causes an “episode.” I asked my doctor “why is this happening to me? Why am I so distressed?” because I’m being medicated for bipolar disorder and I didn’t think these “episodes” were related to bipolar. Well I was right, and like I said my pdoc confirmed that I do have BPD. Does anyone else feel the way I described? I also struggle immensely with identity issues and have a very real fear of abandonment/rejection, (mainly from my friends or new friends I just meet). I’m glad to know I’m not alone and that there are others who feel how I feel. Thank you for allowing me to be a part of your group!