I am fighting it like a ***** but my son with autism is starting at a new school Monday when I start my final teaching internship. I need to rely on my Mom to handle everything and all his behavior issues and I don't have complete confidence in her. I hate not being able to be there for my son even though my mother is fully capable. We just have different parenting styles. I don't know how he will react to not having mommy there but I need to concentrate on my own success at this internship. I'm so conflicted with the mommy role and student/work role that I just want to crawl under the covers and cry.

Coming off a hypo manic high that I was hoping would last longer but the smart part of me remembered to start taking my lithium at bedtime. I almost wanna stop taking it.