Hi Hidden Away,
welcome to PC!
Like what others have asked you, is there any way of you getting the proper help you need? I know school can be tough, and you're battling a war by yourself... I did that and my grades were so badly affected. My mom is the conservative type so I couldn't get the help I need (and so I went in secret)
Hoping that you can find the help you need here too
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"The is no better exercise for the human heart than reaching and lifting others up." - John Holmes
herethennow: This ward is a prison!
Wardmate: No.. here's not a prison. *points to brain* Here is.
dx: recurrent MDD.