Ever since my surgery, and the pulmonary embolism, I've just felt...for a lack of a better term, BLAH. I don't feel as suicidal as I was last month, even though I've had a few days recently that I was, but I don't feel happy either.

I just feel lost, angry, anxious, depressed...I'm just one big ball of emotions.

I ended up back in the ER last night for feeling short of breath, and my doctor has put me on bed rest for the weekend until I can follow up with her on Monday for further testing.

This is not how I thought it would be after my surgery...things were supposed to be better...less health problems, not more.