I have had the same feelings about my T.....for now, I'm trying to hold onto those times in my mind that my T has shown me the most empathy. I even have a "why I can trust T" list lol I add to it when he does or says something that I know means he cares (or most likely so...I struggle with trust).

I know, it's really hard....the only way I have found to deal with it in session is to try and talk about it. It works best for me when I am in my more adult-mode and pick up quickly that something he said pissed me off or hurt me or whatever and I address it right then and there. This has only happened for me a couple times /: Maybe because I'm often not present enough. I have delayed reactions....but then I have to wait till the next week. And I write here to help me cope plus read my list and keep busy.

This is only what has helped me so far. I know some Ts are insensitive or even unethical so I don't want to make assumptions or speculate. I'm sorry you're feeling afraid you and T might not be on the same page, purple I know how ambivalent that place can be.