I like your trust list idea a lot. Thanks for telling me about it. I think I'll try it myself because I want to hang onto the positive.

It feels so great to hear that someone can understand. I know just want you mean about having a delayed reaction time. It usually takes me a few hours to a day after the session to really process what my T said and to become bothered by something. And then I can't address it right away, and have to decide whether it is important enough to bring up next time, or if I should just let it go. Even the thought of expressing anger with my T, or even disagreement, scares me a lot. My relationship with her is so important to me, that I don't want to jeopardize it. I tell myself things like why would you bring that up? It's not a big deal. I know logically that expressing anger at my T will not destroy the relationship, but I only have a few months left with my T, and I want good memories. I want us to get closer, not to be pulled apart.

Thanks Freewilled, it's tough not being sure we're on the same page. I just want a good ending with my T. I hope things get better for you too.