I actually just recently asked my T for validation....well I said something like, "I can't ask for validation though, T! It would be...too much!" And of course, he asked me then if what I was saying was I need him to validate me more. Ugh. It was a roundabout way of asking I guess but better than nothing. Yes - I do fear it will not be genuine though.

I told him at the our last session that I did not want to be controlling. I don't want to make him be a certain way if that's not how he is....and he said I can ask him for whatever I want and he will decide if he can fill the need or not. He said he doesn't think it's too much to ask for the things I've asked for (not much) and if he can do it, he's glad to. He wants me to "have a good experience." Whatever that means. But I take it he wants to help. Or I'm trying to take it that way, anyway.

All this talk with him about my needs has been very awkward and terrifying. And overwhelming. But I'm trying...