Hello. I have BPD and I went off meds completely about 6 months ago. I was same as you - what is this? all these drugs I take & I still feel like crap? what's the use?! I still struggle with bouts of depression and I still have emotional issues, but I certainly feel better than when I was taking all those drugs. I was on every kind of drug you could think of for 20+ yrs - thanks to my family doctor & former shrinks - but none of it actually helped.

If you're thinking of going off your meds, you MUST do it gradually and as slowly as possible. I won't kid you - it's a rough ride - there are withdrawals involved, physical and mental.

I'll give you a link to a website that really helped me: beyondmeds dot com. Look for PsychDrug Withdrawal, click on Withdrawal 101.

Best of luck to you!