I'm not entirely sure, but I think it's what's referred to as unstable sense of self.


I read on your other thread that you experience dissociation. I do too, and know it very well. I think what you described comes from dissociating all the time as a child. Think about it-you're only conscious for part of your reality, like swiss cheese, so it hugely impacts your development. And think about all the missing memories some of us have (not sure if this is true for you too Asia). By the time you become an adult, you don't have a cohesive history to serve as a 'base' for your present/adult experiences like other people, non-dissociaters do.

I had this problem too, and still do to some extent. I can only look at in a positive way now-it's better than having no sense of self.

Integrating split off parts and disavowed emotions helps change this, imo. The cognitive changes have to happen too; your brain habitually dissociates. That part is more difficult. Even if you get to the point where your emotions are more fully experienced, memories retrieved and remembered, you still have the brain/temperment you were born with.

Do you have memory problems too by chance?