It it really class or do you just feel you "should" be where your friends/acquaintances are at since you started there and grew up around them, etc.? I know when I was in my 20's and struggling and my high school and college friends were doing well I was embarrassed that I was not doing equally as well. I wish I had understood at the time that life is a bit of a roller coaster and what we and others "expect" has nothing to do with what really happens; who we marry, how healthy/sick we and our family are, jobs that come or go, etc. can make a big difference and isn't really in our control. Who we are has nothing much to do with how much money we have or what jobs. It is like single people who think being married is great but some married folks wish they were alone/single and could do what they want, young people think they can do things better than their parents until they become parents and see it is not that simple, etc. I do not think life is about reward and punishment or personal success or failure.