When I'm in a depressive stage, I know that I'm in that episode (I don't always with hypo mania) and I can't get out of it. Though I know it's "false", it can be so convincing, like a toxic best friend.

There's an awesome city 40 minutes North. Unfortunately, I can't break my lease here just to break another when I get a job overseas. I know it would make a world of a difference, but I have to wait it out. I apply for jobs everyday.