Hi all.

So I have felt 'ok' for this past month but I don't think I am acting in a way that is healthy. To protect myself from certain negative feelings, I make excuses and just 'let it be'. Yes I feel happier but it's not healthy, is it?

I have however been struggling with abandonment issues, which are totally founded! My best friend of 6 or 7 yrs has a set moving date in Feb to move to the other side of the country and I have also fallen out with a different close friend so I feel 2 friends down which leaves me little left. I work from home and rarely get out so have no idea how to meet new people and make new connections. At the same time I don't want to, it feels like too much work! Oh I dunno what to do.

But really, despite the friend thing, I am coping ok I guess. No depressive episodes, actually quite the opposite.

This year, for me, is all about taking back control! Number one is getting healthy and quitting smoking is one of those things.

I am rambling now!