there's something about meds that dulls your thinking. when i got off them everything started to seam clearer like i was out of a fog. also i always built a tolerance too quickly and the only reward i got was the side effects. it got so bad i started self-medicating with weed which only made my panic attacks worse in the end. i stopped everything cold turkey and supposedly that's really bad but i never stopped twice to think about it because i was in such a haze. then everything started seeming alot more real and my feelings were less dull but i had more conscious say which made it kinda better. still sucks but atleast i feel like i am in the drivers seat instead of the passengers, where time flew by so quickly