My t I never dreaded going to because I knew that I could vent frustrations and receive some insight. Now going to pdoc is another story. I resented making over a 100 mile round trip to see him for all of 20 minutes. Even after seeing him for several years I always felt like he had no idea who I was till he opened my folder.He had this form that he filled out at end of meeting where he wrote down a short statement after a key word. Over half of the key words did not apply to my situation and he would write bizarre comments in them. When I had insurance they insisted that I had to see only him. Once I was on private pay and pulled some of the bizarre statements stuff I found a PA to monitor my meds with T input.