I'm older also. I have more life behind me than ahead of me. I came to the realization that I am the only one who can give meaning to my life, to decide that my life has qualtiy or not. So it's up to me to take each day and enjoy my life as much as is possible in what ever situation I find myself in.

I agree with you that very often life is hard, difficult and basically unfair. Maybe you might try to stop striving for "things" if it is unrealistic for you to want to obtain those things because of your financial situation. It's depressing to fixate on having that which you can not realistically ever expect to be able to afford.

Thinking that you are "less than" other people because you do not have the things most people have is also not a healthy way of thinking about yourself. If you think on a global level, that might help put things in perspective for you. Most people on earth do not have a "home" in the sense of the dwellings we live in here in America. Most people on earth do not have clean water, or enough water or a variety or enough food to eat. They don't have washers, dryers, stoves or refrigerators, etc. etc. I say this not to make you feel bad about yourself, but to help you feel okay with yourself.

I try to concentrate on and work with and enjoy what ever positives I DO HAVE in my life. Whether is be a radio, a comfy bed, a pet I love, nice weather, a spouse, a friend, a family member, a neighbor, a pretty sunset, clothes to wear, my favorite food, books, etc. etc. I do what I can each day to make myself happy, comfortable and to enjoy myself in what ever small ways I can. Only you can decide that your life is worth living for you.

If you don't have many or any people in your life you might try taking an interest in local affairs of one kind or another, or national politics, or some other kind of hobby or activities that interest you and give you something to look forward to and want to find out "what happens next?" so you have a reason on very bad days to hang on until tomorrow - if only to find out "what happens next?" in what ever it is that interests you.