It's not that I think I've had it worse than anyone...at least I don't think I think that :S Maybe I just feel they're misunderstanding what depression is? I know personal problems can be more 'painful' than depression, in fact I used to feel things much more strongly before I got depressed.

I just wrote this but was going to delete it because it sounds horrible and bitter again but I'll leave it for your analysis anyway in the name of honesty: 'I think another reason is that I've severely underachieved and missed out on a lot of things because of this, while they have life problems because they HAVE a life and actually care what goes on, what people think of them, what they look like etc etc. And they spent their highschool years messing around with different boys, partying and getting high , then say they got nowhere because of 'depression'. Whereas I was predicted all A*s but couldn't actually sit up to do work sometimes because of my illness, yet I struggled through and got to uni where I'm still having problems but they're only just being treated. '

I think you might be right after all, I'm just being a bit up myself. If I'm honest, even though these people have been my friends forever (or maybe because they have been) I can't shake the feeling that they're putting it on to seem 'interesting' (posting istagram pictures of self-harm next to part dresses on tumblr??) or make excuses for not achieving. And I hate that, because I feel I have no right to think it and also because I think it about myself often and I really wouldn't want to come off that way to others.