i feel ur pain cracking_slowly. i had the flu during xmas.

today was better. i went to the farm to hang out with my staff friend josh. then my old friend that stopped talking to me in october texted me and we hung out. she said she was sorry she went MIA and wants to start hanging out again . i was so happy to hear that. we hugged and it was good. we are hanging out tomorrow and im going to adopt a new cat from the humane society. we already have plans! i was alone some in the apartment today and it was okay. i cleaned out spooks old litter box and food bowls. i just compartmentalized thinking about him while i did it. its still sad to be here with out him but i feel his presence with me. i talk to him still when im alone. i think he can hear my voice.

hope the rest of u are okay. im so sorry to hear about ur dog costello. animals are such great friends to have and its sad to lose them. i grew up with a big gray cat named smokey . he was 13 when he died of cancer. we put him to sleep too. i was maybe 19 years old. it was a hard time for me too but then i got spook as a kitten and i grew to love him too.