Hey everyone... I'm Robyn, from Philadelphia. I've been reading posts for the last couple of weeks, and have finally decided to post something.

My pdoc diagnosed me with bipolar over the summer... Starting from when I was about 17, and over the last 8 years, I have been diagnosed with everything from panic disorder, to cyclothymia, to borderline, to major depression, to GAD-- I had been off medications for quite awhile. My old pdoc in NY had tried me on 4 million AD's, and some other stuff, but nothing had helped. Over the summer, I started taking Trileptal. Is anyone else taking this med? If so, what are you experiences? Anyway, I thought it was helping, but I guess I was just going through an asymptomatic period... Six weeks ago I went into one of the worst depressions I have ever been in. Last week it started to lift a bit, but now I'm back to feeling not so great again.

The really tough part is that I work full-time and I'm in graduate school for clinical/counseling psychology. I was wondering if anyone else is in a similar boat. I have to push myself so hard to do the simplest things. I attend work and school, but when I'm there it feels as if it's just physical-- my mind is completely somewhere else. I am so behind in my schoolwork. I mean, I haven't missed any due dates, as all the work is due at the end of the semester, but I should have been working on things for weeks now, and I haven't even gotten started. The thing that I'm most upset about is that I had planned on applying for doctoral school in May, but that really doesn't look like it's going to happen for me. I had plans to be getting ready for it all this time, but they have been ruined due to the depression.

Sorry this is so long, but it actually felt very good to write.

Thanks everyone,
Robyn