I had DDNOS, not DID. I didn’t have as many parts as I understand folks with DID do and I didn’t lose time. I had a “rational” part that managed most of my day-to-day life and two internal protector parts (seem like mostly introjects from my parents), and a little girl part that I (“rational”) only got glimpses of occasionally. I now think that she is probably the basic “me” (or self).

So, here’s an idea, but may not be right for you, of course. If one of your others was talking about something and your T asked how you felt about that having happened to you, then your T saying “you” may have triggered the basic you into “existence” briefly. And what happened to “you” had apparently happened in the real world, outside where the other was dealing with it, rather than – if your basic “you” was like mine – something internal you paid attention to. But because we are VERY concerned about paying attention to and managing our internal world, for reasons that were very important in the past, then it could make sense that you were annoyed with your T for taking your focus off that, even temporarily.

But if you’ve looked “out” once, it would seem like you can again. When “you” feel safe doing it. Also, for me, I think I’m getting pretty integrated so there’s not so much internal “stuff” that the basic me (or self) has to manage.

I told my T about how I felt at the post office and she said it wasn't that uncommon as people get better and that one of her other clients said that she hadn't noticed before how bright colors are.