Hi Dylan - Thank you for explaining about your thinking that your parents interactions with you influenced your sense of being cold. Maybe their parents were like that too? And if so, then they don't know how to be other than cold? I appreciate that you don't want to repeat their mistakes. If you feel awkward about showing affection or hugging kids - then maybe try other ways to be positive. That's great the you are aware of your own capacity for feeling love - and this sounds very positive. Of course you can be who you want to be. Aim for happiness.