I totally understand. I recently have gone through a break up and it was really hard for me at first. You are not alone in your feelings. I still talk to my ex every night on the phone and it comforts me. We didn't see each other that often but we spoke a lot on the phone. When I thought I lost talking to him every night, I was crushed. But he gave that back to me. Even though we aren't together anymore, I still have the comfort of him being there every night.

But I know deep in my heart that its over. He doesn't want to be with me. I have accepted that. Maybe one day you will come to the realization too.