I SIed once outside of her office. This was in a residential setting and I was really upset and hardcore testing her. I had made a mistake a few days earlier and she wasn't angry with me. I felt like she should be angry with me because I deserved to be yelled at. She said there is nothing I can do to make her hate me. So I hurt myself outside of her office to see if she'd yell at me then. She sat next to me, cleaned up what I did, put some bandages on me, and told me I deserve to have someone take care of me.

We talk about suicide all the time. She is very good about not overreacting. She will double check that I have no intentions and say if I do have intentions, she will have to send me back to the hospital, but it's never gotten close to that.

Well I did scare her pretty badly once. I took too many pills not in a SA attempt but in an attempt to drown out my life and I emailed her this crazy noncoherant message and she panicked a little. She called me immediately to ask if I was okay. Then she was a little bit mad that I scared her so badly and said if I kept doing that, she would have to send me to the hospital. But it was all okay. She is good about talking about that stuff.