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Originally Posted by The Aes Sedai
Today was my first day back in school since the winter break. I haven't been able to leave my house in four days and today was my first time out. I was panicking as soon as I stepped outside. All day in school my heart was racing and I couldn't stop shaking. I thought I was going to pass out. But once I get used to the routine again, it won't be as bad I think.
My mom is starting to notice how odd I act when I am around other people. When we went food shopping for Christmas, she saw how tense I was and how I was in a hurry to get out of the store. She asked me if I needed to talk to someone about it, but I told her I didn't need to. It feels weird for me to tell her how I feel around others and I don't know if I'd be able to talk to a professional about it either. I'd feel to embarrassed I think. Any advice?
Thanks,
The Aes Sedai  |
Hello, I'm 17 years old and I doubt I'd be able to give much advice. But that's not what I'm here for, I'm here to reassure you that you really aren't alone, and as I was reading your post I couldn't help but relate and see myself in it so much. It helped me realize I wasn't alone, so I hope I help you realize too. School is starting back for me in less than 5 hours. (I've been up most of the night) and I've always struggled with school. Ever since about two years ago, school just got extremely hard for me. It was so hard just to focus. I have really bad social anxiety, and you may have that too. I would always feel eyes on me. I was never comfortable in my own skin. I even laid out of school for a whole year and tried to hide myself from the world in my own room. I hope you never do what I did because even though I thought it'd help me, it didn't. After that year of laying out of school my social interactions were worse than ever, my fear of school was even worse and I almost lost all of my communication skills.
You aren't alone. I'm still struggling on going back, and the thought that I have to go back in less than 5 hours really makes it even seem doubtful that I will. Just don't give up. Take me as an example and tell yourself "wow, I don't want to end up like that"